Online Is No Different Than Offline

I've been doing this whole online dating thing for almost three yrs. I started doing it because I found myself having no time to meet and greet men. I felt that being online, would allow me the time to handle my business while pursuing a great relationship. Some of my friends asked me "Why don't you meet someone on the street?" or "OMG...Why would you want to go online...that's so whack!" My thing was..there are some people that have been successful with online dating. They meet a great guy, go on dates, marry them and even have children. So hell yea...I'm going to try it. It might give me a better group of me, than what I've been meeting offline. HELL NAH. Over these three yrs, I've learned so much about myself and men that it isn't even funny. The one thing that sticks out the most, is the inconsistency that they show. With some of them, online conversation seems to flow consistently. It seems that I am on the same page with them and they totally understand what it is that I need from a man. Okay..so now it is time to take the next step which is exchanging numbers. This takes places because I had a great feeling that this is a decent man...showing and making me feel how I should, which is terrific. This is the point that things shift. They don't call as much, if they do communicate it is through texting and if we do make it on a date...they are broke or cheap as hell. I am so sick and tired of being alone. I am so sick and tired of watching those around me, meet their mate. I feel stagnated, depressed and lonely. How hard is it for boy to like girl, girl to like boy and both parties really get to know one another...without sex being involved. I mean it happens because both parties have genuine feelings and likeness towards one another. How hard is it really to call someone and ask them how is/was their day, how are they feeling or simply just letting them know that they were being thought about. Why does this society suck when it comes to being stable, honest, consistent and worthy?????? I spoke to a longtime friend tonight and she told me...ERASE ALL ONLINE DATING PROFILES...I was like ALL??? She said yes ALL. She told me to stop looking and wait for it to come to me. So I erased them. It was not difficult, because in my eyes, no one was really hitting me up with a promise of a future. It has been a very depressing journey, in search of a good man to complete my family. I need a husband and my son needs a father. When will my turn finally come? This is what I ask myself everyday. I have moments where I feel so lonely that I will began to cry because I just don't understand what is wrong with me. I understand that GOD works @ his own pace...but smh...WHY SO SLOW????